Ending 2015 With Positive Thoughts!

The new year is upon us as we say goodbye to 2015.
I got brave today and decided to make a video instead of blogging my message to you for the New Year. My husband had some fun with it too. I look back on this year and see how truly blessed I am. I am looking forward to all the things waiting to happen in this next year of 2016.

I hope this video gives you giggles and food for thought.

Happy New Year!
May love always surround you, flow through you and guide you.

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The Force Awakens

Today The Force Awakens comes early to some theaters. My family and I have been watching Star Wars episodes IV, V, and VI, leading up to today and it got me thinking. There couldn't be a more perfect time for them to release Episode VII.

I grew up with the original trilogy. I was just a young lass in the 70's when the original Star Wars was released. It all seemed so magickal, so new, and it created a culture and fan base that followed it through to Return of The Jedi, Episode VI.

In between Jedi and The Force Awakens, there were three more episodes that didn't seem to have quite the impact that the first three had on fans. As a Star Wars fan I will always consider Episodes IV, V, and VI the first three. With all of the special effects in movies today repetitively infused into just about every film, the new generations would not have the Star Wars experience that our generation had.

Besides the special effects, there was something more important about these films. We were introduced to the Force. This mysterious force inside a Jedi that allowed him to reach deep with in himself and manifest abilities that seemed almost magickal. Until then these powers were reserved for Wizards and Super Heroes, not everyday folk like a boy named Luke Skywalker.

Here was this young man who dreamed of being more. More than just what his Uncle Owen told him he could be. He didn't give up and the Universe aligned to bring him to his destiny. Yes, there were tragic events as there are in real life, but it's Luke's attitude and perseverance that keeps him hopeful and on the path of a Jedi.

We can easily find how this mirrors our time, not so far way in our own galaxy.

Let's just say, for arguments sake, that we all carry the Midi-Chlorians. Maybe that is not what we would call them, but lets say that they are not found in our blood, but our DNA. How much of our DNA is unidentified? They say about 85% of our DNA is useless, but is it? So I ask you is it so far fetched to say that we all have the force within us?

Among the turmoils we deal with in our time, we have choices. You can choose to feed on the negative- anger, pain, revenge, and be engulfed by the dark side or to choose love, patience, forgiveness and walk the Jedi path.

So today I ask you to believe in yourself and know yourself, because today The Force Awakens.

I Feel Like I Am Falling Apart.......And That's Okay.

The wind is blowing wildly outside right now and the air is crisp with the wavering of Fall and the coming of Winter.

I love the wind. She is my Siren calling me to hear her sing, beckoning me to let her tousle my hair and place cold kisses on my cheeks and nose. With this day being that of a New Moon, I am reveling in the magick of the this beautiful day and this very moment. Yesterday was completely different.

I started yesterday with joyous intentions. Our tree was selected the night before by my wonderful son, and we planned a festive day of holiday music and decorating. As my husband brought in all the holiday totes, I sat down on the floor and started to sort through them.  I opened the tote that held the hats and stockings and as I pulled the stockings out one by one, tears started to well up in my eyes. Just as they are starting now while I type this, but my Princess is on my chair next to me as if she knows I need her company right now. I pulled the stockings out and looked at the names written in gold glitter; Lucky, Thunder and Tux. Those are the names of our kitties that have crossed the Rainbow Bridge over the last five years. I held one stocking in my hand and glanced down at it through a blur of tears. It was Dupey's stocking, we unexpectedly lost him late this past September. That one there had sent the tears falling uncontrollably, unstoppable.

I had four more stockings to put aside as I kept thinking about how at one time we had a wonderful array of Christmas stockings hanging from the fire place, 3 dogs, 7 cats, and 4 humans. It was always one of the high points of decorating for me. I started to feel myself longing to be back in that moment before we came here.

I pulled out the four stockings, Peanut, Lil Monster, Tommy and Fezzy. Tommy and Fezzy are hunkering down with my mother-in-law and her furry clan. She was kind enough to take them in when a move almost two years ago forced us to re-home some of our animals. We were renters now and had a pet limit that had to be followed. Monster and Peanut were re-homed to good people we knew. With Peanut we would find out months later that the person we left him with was not who he had led us and others to believe he was. We have no idea what happened to Peanut and it breaks my heart to think about it. All these emotions had taken me to a place that I just surrendered to. I submitted to the guilt, the self hate, the pain of having to make decisions, the anger that we couldn't make things work in the place we were before, the emptiness, the sorrow, the abyss, I succumbed and I let it all run it's course.

There were many more thoughts that contributed to my emotional demise yesterday that don't need to be mentioned here. Where I am going with this is - I let the emotions come to their peak and sat on the floor crying the rest of the day away. To some this may not make sense, it may not seem like something to make all those tears over, and that is OK. This was my pain, a path that I walked, things that I felt a great loss over and had not fully dealt with. So here it was again, in my face not letting me suppress it. So I owned up to it, I accepted it, I gave myself permission to cry over it until I could cry about it no more. I let it go and when I was done, when I could cry no more, I went upstairs to go to bed. I was dehydrated and exhausted, I released a lot of energy that had quietly been weighing me down.

As I laid in my bed I felt like I would never be happy again. I thought about my precious furry companions I still had and knew one day I would have to say goodbye to them too and feel this pain all over again. Then, at that moment, my little Princess Creepy cat snuggled her way under the blankets and started nibbling on my fingers. Boots then also jumped onto the bed and after purposely stepping on Princess, who let out a sound of disapproval, snuggled up by my head. I couldn't help but smile and decided to live in the now. I had my bad day, tomorrow would be better. And you know what? It was!

We are allowed to have bad days, they are part of the healing process.
May love always guide you and light always protect you.

Dont Give Up, You Got This.

Today I wanted to step out of my comfort zone and share a video with you.
I was inspired by a dear friend to do so, there for I have made a Vlog for my Blog.
I didn't know what was going to happen when I turned my camera on or what I was going to say, but  did it. I was scared, thought I would draw a blank and just sit there staring at the camera. I didn't choke, well not much,  and surprisingly the words began to come. I wanted to share that message with you.

But first, I want to share something else. Hopefully you all have special people in your lives who inspire you or have guided you to go deeper with in yourselves and seek who you really are. For me that person is a wonderful soul named Shakti. I can take up a whole blog talking about her and what she has done for me and can offer you, but instead I will post her link so you may go on your own discoveries with her if you choose to do so. I highly recommend that you do. You can learn about Shakit and her services at www.OneAscension.com.

I hope you enjoy this video. Have a blessed and wonderful day.